In “Blue Talk and Love”, Sullivan utilizes the character Earnestine beautifully to show her differences from the norm and has you rooting for her in the end. The character Earnestine portrays an internal conflict that many people have regarding race and sexual orientation. During the story, she always compares herself to the pretty white girls, which is considered the norm. She hangs out with Xiomara and constantly wishes she has her attributes. However, she would always be considered different because of her skin color. She tries prying into Xiomara stories about boys and hopes to feel the same connection that she does. Earnestine doesn’t and it’s evident that these differences causes tension within her mood and confusion about who is she supposed to be.
Earnestine’s talk with her father was the turning point where Earnestine finally realized it’s okay to be different. I feel like the father told Earnestine what she already knew and his example of a pigeon only reinforced it. Despite being attacked by people and having to constantly deal with annoying children, the pigeon still does its own thing and does what they want and feel. I feel like Earnestine already knew that but to hear it from her father changed her view. It seemed like she always enjoyed her father and her music but never had a deep talk because he was always out. For her to see her father understand and also seeming forever lonely when he just sat there and watched the pigeons, it was impactful and made Earnestine know she wasn’t alone.
In the end, I was happy for Earnestine. While she will always have insecurities about her beauty and differences from the norm, it seemed that she was starting to accept it. This was a major change from the beginning and it has you rooting for her, especially when she understands her sexual desires and makes love to Xiomara.